All this s*it in my head

This has certainly been a year for self-discovery. “Why?” you ask.

Because I’m testing out this new feature, and I’m wondering if I can simply dictate into a post, save it as a draft, and come back to it the next day for editing, prettying up, adding graphics, and posting.

I think I will publish this now and go see how it looks in the app.

I am tired. I want to understand how everything works. It feels like I am at a crossroads. Like a new, magical world awaits for both of us, and we’re stuck here, entangled, weighted down, confused, choking, blind, unbelieving, hopeless. I don’t know how to go forward. I think I need to understand and live in the actual truth about how the universe works, but I don’t know what, exactly, I believe.